Dear Emily (in 2024)

I haven’t blogged much this semester.  School gets busy you know.  But anyway, I took an English class (maybe that’s where all of my writing efforts were focused.  Yeah, let’s go with that!) and we primarily focused on rhetorical situation and audience, something I hadn’t really thought much about prior.  Turns out that it’s pretty important, and also my subconscious has done a descent job considering it even while I remain naïve.  So, our first assignment of the semester was a discussion board post introducing ourselves.  We were told to include personal academic and non-academic interests, to reflect on a quote from the syllabus, and to discuss the dynamics between professional and academic environments and how we navigate those two arenas as coop students.  Afterwards we were asked to repeat the assignment using a new rhetorical context.  I chose to write a letter to my future self.

I am posting this letter to my future self here, so that 10 years from now I will be more likely to stumble upon it here rather than in my Northeastern Spring 2014 English folder on my computer (because why on earth would I revisit that 10 years from now?)  Here goes!

Dear Emily (in 2024),

I am a junior in college and majoring in biology and environmental science, but I am considering switching fields into theology. What did you think I should do?  (I realize you have an advantage over me here, as you have already made that decision, but what could it hurt to ask?)  Co-op has been great in helping me discover what I don’t want to do… But so far my future is still in a cloud of mist (hopefully that mist has parted for you at least a little bit).  Anyway, at present I am aware of two things.  1) I do not want to work in a lab.  And 2) I like to play outside.  (Do I ever more back to Alaska???)

As you can tell, I am in the wandering stages of life.  I am not-so-patiently waiting on some epiphany to point me in the right direction and open the magic curtain with a TA-DAH!!!  But so far the opened curtain has only revealed the daily weather (I supposed this in itself is a good thing, as without that open curtain I would not have known to put on a raincoat this morning… but I doubt you are very interested in the weather of 10 years ago so I will try to avoid that topic from here on out – one would hope there are more interesting things to talk about with my future self anyway, without digressing to the weather). 

At present I am trying to determine the role that ministry plays in my life.  I am aware of the mission “to make disciples of every nation…” but I don’t yet understand how that will physically play out in my life (your life?  Our lives…?) I suppose this is where the rift is developing between biology and myself.  (In case you don’t remember, our 12 year old self was determined she was going to be a geneticist – our 22 year old self isn’t so sure…)  So my task now is to figure out how we will make the transition from an academic career in biology to a professional career in ministry.  The cool thing is I think those could over lap a bit, I’m just still working on figuring out that process… Any tips?  (I really wish you would hurry up and write me back).

So I am a student, and you are a professional.  Co-op has tried to mold me into a professional, but so far it has been unsuccessful.  Perhaps you have had better luck.  I think for me this academic stage is more about testing things out and making up my mind, whereas when I am you and a real professional hopefully I will have already settled into a field.  I’m not saying you can’t explore a bit and change your mind if you need to (please don’t be stuck in a career that I dislike), but I would hope there is at least a little more consistency and direction in your life.  My job is to acquire the skill set in academics that you will apply to society professionally.  Sound like a plan?  We make a good team!

One thing I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart is that you always continue to explore.  Remember when we climbed up that big rock in Denali?  Or when we went to Costa Rica and camped in the rainforest?  Or __________  (you fill in the blank, you know more about us than I do!)  I think T.S. Eliot called it pretty good “We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know that place for the first time.”  I guess that is what you and I are always doing; as you venture into the world and find your place in society you continue to see me in a new light.  Bruner commented, “Knowing is a process, not a product.”  Even after 22 years I still can’t fully answer the fundamental question ‘Who am I?’  As I get to know Emily better, I can still wonder who she is, she isn’t finished yet.  Do you have a better idea at 32?  I guess I’ll just have to wait and find out.

Love, 

Emily (in 2014)